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Saturday, February 5, 2011
CNY 2011 bunny year...>
well, holidays for chinese new year is almost gone. soon, i have to back to school again. what had happened in this few days?the day before cny:had a reunion dinner with my family. this year, we added 1 more person- my sister in law, ling. quite happy that moment. i drunk wine. well, the wine tasted nice, got fruit flavour. i drunk all that left in the bottle. guess what happen then? i felt very sleepy while eating. my face turned flushed. my 2 brothers and sis ling bullied me, they said i had drunk. was i really get drunk? i dunno. maybe is just sleepy... that night, a person said i'm stupid and silly. well, sometime, i really felt that i'm really silly. MOST SILLY IN THE WORLD by J is really quite suit me. but i just can't stop myself to think of something bukan bukan. and when i rethink back, i really feel that... I'M SILLY. her message is still in my phone, i haven't deleted it yet. every night before i sleep, i will automatically think back what she 'scolded' me. and i'm really touch when reading her message till NOW. i nearly cried out when read that message for the 1st time. it really touched me lot. i had never think that that message will be appeared. thank god for letting me to meet this BEST FRIEND. how about the another? well, i knew that she surely will asked me the incident. she cares me much. 4 years best friend, and this is the 5th year... how god loves me for giving me these 2 good buddies. a new hope from me: nothing will change our friendship!!! can it be true? after 6 months, i REbelieve about it again. 1st day of cny: hey, is my birthday!!! my chinese birthday!!! well, i got a lot of DOUBLE ang paw this year. my parents, dad's sis, mum's sisters... an addition starting from this year, my bro ryan's. what made me felt really 'pai seh' while receiving the ang paw is, PL's aunt and my BRO CHARLES GAVE ME ANGPAW. especially from him. he is not married yet and i know that he is poor. but he still gave me a birthday ang paw this year, the only this year. well, i'm pai seh and touch. the amount is not small also. really very very pai seh. THX SO MUCH BRO... i know u love me very much and me too!!!!2nd day of cny:this year no more going to kampar. we just stay in ipoh, watching tv. i think is maybe because of last year we can't have any visiting due to grandpa's death and causes us felt lazy to go this year. this was the 1st time i met someone forgot to give ang paw until we step out from his gate only he remembered. fine, we eaten a lot of cakes, including tiramisu!!! 1st time i ate leh... wakaka... long time didn't see bro chong... so happy to see him back from singapore. my eldest cousin from dad's side. so sorry that can't make it for his wedding due to competition... so sad!!!!3rd day of cny:didn't go to anywhere for visiting. just have a trip to gunung lang and went to have a lunch at bagan semak. don't being cheat by the 'cover' of gunung lang. it's really memalukan!!! there were male's 'urinary toilet' in female's toilet!!!! CAN U IMAGINE???omg!!! but dad did a very hilarious thing. the man on the boat asked him to wear on the jacket. but he put under his buttocks. the funniest part reached: the man said: itu jacket adalah untuk pakai, bukannya untuk letak di bawah punggung!!! dad is embarrassed... how about the lunch?? well, i swear that i will never go there anymore... i ate with FLIES!!! ish!!! disgusting and irritating!!!
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
fair>
just know that act my bro also don't have new clothes.... hahaha.... BRO, NO NEW CLOTHES WON'T DIE!!! WE WEAR OLDS TOGETHER!!!! HAPPY FAMILY!!!
Disappointment - Relieve>
on wednesday, i dated 2 of my best friends out to parade as i haven't buy clothes. i dunno they really know that i have no time to go out as everyday i also have training till noon. how i wish that they really know. but, they didn't promise me yet. nvm. on friday, i asked again whether they free or not. J say dunno, ask me to text her on sun. Y say other ppl JUST NOW ask her to go jusco. on sunday, i texted J, she only tell me that other ppl dated her and she will go with them. i'm quite not happy at that time, but i still fine. night, i texted Y, she didn't reply me. so i know that she won't go also. ok, these are all fine.
but that night, i saw J uploaded photos she went out that day (monday). rupa rupanya, she went out with Y and other friends. they all go sing k. from their photos, they are really damp happy. how i hope i can go out also, i'm very emotional conflict that day. train till mad, the man ordered and said something i really not syok. quarrel with T... how i hope they can cheer me up. well, they are the 1 who made me more sad.
what i'm angry and disappoint is, i date them 1st and they know that if today i don't go, i just have to wear old clothes during cny... but they prefer to go with their friends that date them later than me. yday i like jk gam scold J, and she just say ask me to find other ppl and say sorry. SORRY IS NOT BIGGER THAN LORRY.
i really very disappointed. i hate people not keeping their promises. J kept on asking me what happen. she even sms me and ask is it she made me angry. i dunno how to reply her. or i say: yes, both of u really hurt me like that??? or say nothing la... i can't lie on myself...she see i ignore her, she yao post on her wall... that moment i really have no feeling on her post. everything recall back my sad memories... huh... but, i become tougher, no tears rolling down, just appear in my eyes. should i be proud of this?act, the main purpose is i wanna to have a hang out with them before cny as i think i will have no more chances to hang out with them since i will have NO MORE HOLIDAY due to competition. i never hang out with BOTH OF THEM TOGETHER. but i know that, act i'm wrong. N is right. i shouldn't ask them to accompany me to buy clothes. my way is really not right. i should tell them that i want to hang out. they have not promise me anything, they still have the rights to choose to go with those who dated them later than me. honestly speaking, i feel nothing now. but, i really dunno how to tell them the truth. if 1 day they know this, i hope that nothing will be change because of this.